Mistiek 3 / mysticism 3. Die ervaring van God se teenwoordigheid / Experiencing presence

Experiencing God's Presence: the mystical experience beyond everything that always mattered

The mystical experience also means becoming aware that the prayerful longing for God is transformed into experiencing God’s presence. A transformation takes place: In the prayerful longing for God I become aware that God is listening to me. But then, at a moment, the prayer brings the awareness that God is my prayer.

The longing is transformed into presence. The one who prays becomes aware of something deeper and more than him- or herself. The trusted reality, everything that seems so certain and evident, is but a glass beyond which one experiences something deeper and greater. Our reality no longer speaks the final word. We relate to our world in a different way. We now know there is a presence that goes beyond the reality that previously seemed so reassuring and stable.

The consequences are surprising: the “I” moves to the background. I am aware that something changed, a shift has taken place in what matters to me. I am in the presence of something more, of Someone. The mystic says: I am with the Lord, the Most High, the Father, the Word, the Bridegroom, the Loving One, the Source of Life, Light, Fire, the All-One, the Immutable One, Nothing, Presence, Being.

Van "ek" tot "God": die ondeurgrondelike skuif weg van alles wat altyd saakgemaak het.

Daar kom ‘n oomblik dat die mistieke ervaring ‘n nuwe dimensie kry. Die eerste oomblikke van die biddende verlange na God verander tot die ervaring van God se teenwoordigheid. Daar vind ‘n omslag plaas, 'n ingrypende skuif: In die biddende verlange word ‘n mens bewus daarvan dat God na jou luister. Ewe skielik word die gebed onderbreek. ‘n Mens kry die gevoel dat God jou gebed is. Wat ‘n mens bid, dit is God.

Met ander woorde: die verlange word tot teenwoordigheid omvorm. Die bidder word bewus van iets wat meer is as hy- of haarself. ‘n Mens word ook bewus van iets wat meer en groter is as alles wat ‘n mens ooit beleef. Ons kry ‘n nuwe perspektief op ons wêreld wat vroeër vir ons so finaal en seker gelyk het. Ons besef dat daar iets groters as die werklikheid is. Ons staan voor iets diepers, iets wat baie meer is as alles wat ons gewoonlik van dag tot dag ervaar as ons lewenswerklikheid.

Dit het dan ‘n verrassende gevolg: dit is asof my eie ek op die agtergrond skuif. Ek raak ingestel op iets anders, Iemand anders. Ek ondervind ‘n totaal unieke teenwoordigheid. My lewe word skielik volgemaak deur Iemand anders as ek self. Ek voel ek is by die Here is, by my Vader, dat ek luister na ‘n spesiale Woord, dat ek ‘n nuwe Gees beleef, dat ek Nuwe Lewe ontvang. Lig stroom in my lewe, Vuur brand in my, ek voel en weet my lewe word deur die Teenwoordigheid van iets en Iemand gevul.

In U teenwoordigheid word my verlangende hart stil. U kom woon in my onrustige gemoed. U, o God, die ewige, die onverganklike en unieke Here van die lewe.