Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Wie is ek? Die geestelike soeker se innerlike reis... Oor die mistagogie (10).

Die stukkie oor Moody en die skaapwagter wat sy skape aan hul gebreke herken (sien ‘n vorige blog), het uitgeloop op die stelling dat ‘n mens op ‘n punt moet kom dat jy op jou geestelike reis vra dat jou gebreke en swakhede aan jou uitgewys word.

Jy moet dit gaan vra!

Dit is nogal ‘n ding wat by my knaag: ons is dan so goed in ons eie oë. Hoe sou ons dan ooit dan wou toegee dat ons ‘n gebrek het? Wat nog van om ‘n ander mens te gaan vra om sulke gebreke vir ons uit te wys.

Dit vra moed om jou vir kritiek en ondersoek oop te stel.

Of dalk is daar iets diepers waaraan ‘n mens hier aandag moet gee. Want hier gaan die naamlik oor die innerlike van die mens wat op die geestelike reis gaan hulp vra.

Ons geestelike reis laat ons nooit koud nie. Daar kom ‘n oomblik dat ons tot in ons lyf toe weet ons het 'n verborge ervaring beleef. In ons binneste is ons deur iets geraak. Ons lewe word iewers op ‘n manier tot stilstand gebring. Ons lewenspatroon word onderbreek. Ons hart klop anders. Ons liggaam bring ons tot stilstand. Ons stotter, of wil dankbaar sing, of wil huil van vreugde of swel van trots of ons kyk bloot net anders as tevore na dinge. Alles wat ons gewoonlik wil doen, word bietjie minder belangrik. Alles wat ons altyd beplan het, kry vir ons ‘n ander status of word maar bietjie valerig. Ons ontmoeting gee vir ons ‘n gevoel dat God ons aangeraak het. Ons ontdek ongewone emosies in ons. Ons gevoelens kan ons nie begryp nie. Of ons voel getroos. Dit is asof ons nuwe lewe wil ontdek, nuwe rigting wil inslaan.

Dit is dan die onverklaarbare, onbegryplike wonder van God se aanraking – daardie oomblik dat God die inisiatief uit jou hande neem en saam met jou ‘n nuwe koers inslaan. Daar vind iets plaas met jou...

Dit hoef nie ‘n verskriklike ommekeer te wees nie, soos van Paulus op pad Damaskus toe nie. Dit kan stilweg gebeur. Dit kan gebeur wanneer ek verwonderd of geboeid hoor hoe iemand oor God praat – dit word ‘n praat wat in my hart in sny en nuwe lewe plant. Dit kan op ‘n beskamende manier gebeur wanneer ek iemand seer maak en myself herken as ‘n mens wat ander vertrap. Ek besef ek ek wil nie meer so wees nie. God, voel ek aan, wys vir my ‘n ander weg. Of dit gebeur in die seerste oomblikke van pyn wanneer ek nie meer verder kan nie. God kom lê ‘n genesende hand op my wonde. Die balsem van Gilead salf my brandende wonde. En dan kyk ek na myself en dink – hoe het ek tog ooit kon dink dat ek deur my pyn sou kon leef – en hier gebeur dit tog.

Wanneer God op een of ander manier, groots of sagweg, in my lewe werk, raak dit my innerlike lewe onherroeplik en onvermydelik. Ek moet omdraai en nuwe koes inslaan.

Dit is dan ‘n goeie tyd om saam met een van God se kinders jou geestelike reis af te lê, want die koers is nie altyd so duidelik uitgewys nie.

Dan deel ‘n mens jou innerlike: Ek kyk met nuwe oë – na myself. Ek wonder oor dinge wat met my gebeur en veral nou moet gebeur.

Dit alles fokus op self-ondersoek. Dit wys op die verhouding wat iemand met hom- of haarself het. ‘n Mens kyk met oop, versigtige oë na jouself. Jy ondersoek jou hart. Maar steeds weer sodat jy ‘n rein hart kan kry. En jy ontbloot jou innerlike sodat jy oop kan wees vir God se werking in jou lewe.

So dikwels ondersoek ons ons binneste asof ons na ons naeltjie lê en kyk. Navel-gazing, noem die eilanders dit. Sommige boer-mense praat in die laaste paar jare bietjie meer reguit van ons eindelose uitryg van derms. Ons trek en ons bly trek aan die derm net om die trekkery ontwil. Jy sit by die sielkundige en die terapeut en loop al in 'n kring om jouself. Oor en oor en oor. En as jy aan die einde kom, begin alles weer van voor af. Derms uitryg.

Maar in geestelike begeleiding, in die mistagogiese reis, is dit anders. Die begeleier sal steeds weer die verinnerliking saam met jou beleef. "Wat sê jou hart?" Maar die punt lê nog dieper: "Wat sê jou hart oor God se plek in jou lewe? Wat sê jou hart? Wat sê jou hart oor God se plek in jou pyn? Wat sê jou hart: waarheen is jy nou op pad in jou geestelike reis?"

"Hoe klop jou hart nou? Vir God?"

God raak ons aan tot in die diepste kamers van ons innerlike lewe. Dit roer ons en bring ons tot self-ondersoek. Ons ontbloot onsself voor God. En tastend moet ons dan verder. Die een wat saamstap leer my om hart oop te maak, sodat daar vir God in daardie oop plek meer ruimte is om in te woon.
Is dit dan so ‘n groot probleen om na ‘n geestelike moeder of vader te gaan en te vra dat jou tekortkominge aan jou uitgewys word?

Jy vra nie: vertel my tog hoe ek al my foutjies kan ontdek en uitskakel sodat ek nog beter kan wees nie.

Jy vra: wys my daardie dinge in my lewe wat ek nie van weet nie, of nie van wil weet nie, wat my in my geestelike reis na God terughou. Jy vra: help my om alles uit te roei wat my moontlik van God af kan weghou. Daardie splinter, die balk wat ek te blind is om te herken, te hardvogtig is om aan te voel, te trots is om toe te gee.

In die mistagogie is hierdie proses gerig op die mens wat geestelik begelei word se verhouding tot homself (Waaijman). Die soeker, die hulpbehoewende verlang om innerlik so suiwer te wees dat God ‘n volmaakte tuiste daar sal kan hê.

Wat God doen, resoneer met ons lyf, met ons liggaam, met ons siel. Alles in ons kom in beweging. Ons is nie meer in beheer nie. Om dus vorentoe te kan gaan - dit is die ding.

Ons geestelike reis gaan fundamenteel oor ons verhouding met onsself. Hier is self-kennis noodsaaklik. Dikwels kom self-kennis eers in sy volheid wanneer 'n mens 'n geestelike begeleier het om jou self saam met jou te bekyk, te beoordeel en te laat groei. ‘n Wyse mistagoog kan God se kragtige instrument tot heling, groei en volwassenheid wees.

Hoeveel is daar tog nie op die spel in die mistagogie nie! Ons weet dit intuitief. Tog sukkel ons om prakties deel te raak van die mistagogiese reis. En dit terwyl ons innerlike uitroep om geestelik begelei te word...



Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Lees en luister. Om God se woorde te herkou. Bybelstudie oor Openbaring (2)

Openbaring 1:3: Geseënd is hy wat die woorde van die profesie lees, en die wat dit hoor en ter harte neem wat daarin geskrywe is, want die tyd is naby.

Ons koop ‘n boek of ‘n koerant sonder om twee maal te dink. Maar in Johannes se tyd was boeke skaars en net vir uitgesoekte mense beskikbaar. Daarom is dit nogal opmerklik dat Johannes ‘n boek is, ‘n geskrewe bekendmaking van God se wil.

Op ‘n dag het iemand in die eerste eeu na Christus iewers gaan sit en hierdie boek in groot Griekse letters begin skryf. Dat Johannes kon skryf en Grieks geken het, wys al iets van sy bekwaamheid. Min mense kon lees en skryf. Uit die manier waarop hierdie boek kunstig saamgestel is, weet ons boonop dat die skrywer baie versigtig nagedink het oor sy werk.

Maar dit was nie sommer nog net ‘n boek nie. Hy kies ‘n baie opvallende beskrywing vir sy boek. Sy boek was ‘n goddelike boek – ‘n “profesie,” ‘n mededeling van God se woorde aan mense. In hierdie boek is God se wil vir gelowiges in daardie tyd bekend gemaak. Hy “skryf” dus as profeet aan die sewe kerke in Asië. In daardie tyd was dit nogal gewaagd om sulke profetiese boeke te skryf want mense het gedink die boeke kan in die hand van afwykende groepe beland en verdraai word. Om jou eie boek dan nog ‘n profesie te noem, was nog meer opvallend.

Maar Johannes het hieroor geen reserwes nie. Hy skryf sonder om te twyfel daaraan dat sy boodskap besonder belangrik is. Hy weet maar te goed dat ‘n profesie uitsonderlik is. Uit Openbaring blyk hoe baie Johannes geweet het van sulke Ou-Testamentiese profete soos Esegiël, Jeremia, Jesaja, Daniël en Sagaria. Hy praat duidelik die taal van die profete van ouds.

Hy gee dus te kenne dat hy ook visioene soos profete van ouds het. Dit gaan oor wat gaan gebeur (vers 2). En hierdie gebeure wat God beskik het, moet gedeel word met die sewe gemeentes, met die kerk van sy tyd, met die nuwe volk van God. God reik uit na die kerke om vir hulle die verborge dinge mee te deel.

Johannes verwag duidelik van sy lesers 'n bepaalde leeshouding. Sy boek, moet hulle weet, is nie maar een van baie nie. Hulle moet maar goed weet wat gebeur as hulle dit hoor. As hulle sy boek optel, is hulle met iets spesiaals besig....

Johannes skryf, maar sy boek word verder ook “gelees.” Dit wat op skrif staan, word deur die tong van die voordraer lewendig gemaak. Dit is die tweede stap: Johannes het die visioene sy eie gemaak deur hulle neer te skryf. Ons weet maar te goed hoe ‘n mens ‘n gedig op ‘n nuwe, ander manier kan verstaan as jy dit gaan neerskryf. Maar Johannes weet iemand in die gemeente gaan daardie woorde lewendig maak. Dit gaan insak in sy gedagtes. Die voorleser moet reg lees, reg verstaan, reg uitspreek en goed kommunikeer. Die woorde gaan deel van die voorleser se liggaam word. Hulle gaan in sy bestaan resoneer. Ons weet net so goed hoe ons ‘n gedig op ‘n ander, beter manier kan verstaan as ons dit hardop lees.

En dan die derde fase: mense gaan daarna luister. Die visioen-woorde gaan in hulle ore weerklink. Hulle liggame gaan ook met Johannes visioene resoneer. Die klanke van die woorde gaan deur hulle ore in hul gedagtes vassteek. Hierdie hoor van ‘n teks lyk eenvoudig, maar dit is eintlik heel kompleks. Hulle gaan wag op die eerste klanke en dan gaan hulle elke klank, elke lettergreep, elke woord, elke sin, elke gedeelte met mekaar verbind en daarvan sin maak. Dit wat met Johannes in sy visioene gebeur word daardeur nog dieper deel van hul lewensruimte. Mense gaan dit behoorlik bedink.

En tog: Johannes skryf ‘n mens kan die woord beluister, maar dit gaan nog nie in jou hart lê nie. Egte geluk, egte saligheid kom eers wanneer jy die woorde oor sy visioen in jou hart opneem en jou eie maak. Ons ken dit: mense kan die Bybel dikwels optel en lees. Maar hul lewens is soos ‘n vyeboom sonder vrugte.

Gelukkig is die hoorder wat ook in die ry gaan staan en soos Johannes en die voorleser hierdie kosbare profesie in die hart opneem.

Johannes wil van sy lesers 'n heel spesifieke leeshouding hê: Vir Johannes was een ding baie seker: sy boek maak mense nie bang nie. As hulle dit met hul hele hart lees, sal dit hul hart vol vreugde maak. Sy woorde beteken: As jy dus, liewe leser, hierdie boek optel en met die regte hart lees, sal dit jou oorweldig met vreugde!





Gustav Dore: Ruiter op die wit perd



Monday, June 28, 2010

Hoe die skaapwagter elke skaap se naam geken het. Oor Moody en die mistagogie! (9)

Moody, daardie beroemde Amerkaanse evangelis uit die tweede helfte van die negentiende eeu vertel die storie van ‘n vriend van hom wat in Sirië ‘n skaapwagter ontmoet het wat die reputasie gehad het dat hy al sy skape name gegee het en hulle name onthou het.

Moody se vriend, op besoek by die man, wou hom toets. Hy vra hom toe om van sy skape te roep.

Die skaapwagter roep toe: “Karel.” Een van die skape hou op eet en kyk op na hom. Die skaapwagter roep hom: “Kom hier.” Die skaap het nader gekom en na hom gestaan en staar.

Dit het hy met ‘n paar van die skape gedoen.

Die vriend van Moody vra toe vir hom hoe hy dit regkry want, uiteraard vir ‘n stadsjapie, die skape lyk almal dieselfde. Die skaapwagter verduidelik toe dat hy elkeen van die skape herken aan tipiese kenmerke. Die een het ingedraaide voete. Die ander een het ‘n skewe oog. Nog een het ‘n merkie onder sy oor.

Die vriend sit toe en dink by homself dat die skaapwagter elkeen van die skape uitken aan een of ander gebrek. Nie een van die skape was perfek nie.

En nou die toepassing wat Moody fokus op die motief van die skape se gebreklikheid: Só, sê Moody, kyk die Here na mense. Daar is ‘n gierige mens en die Here stel ‘n skaapwagter aan om hom te help waak daarteen. Daar is ‘n mens wat ‘n egte skinderbek is. ‘n Ander een wat skelm is. Hulle het ‘n skaapwagter nodig om oor hulle te waak en hulle te beskerm teen hul eie swakheid. Daar is nie ‘n mens op aarde wat nie ‘n swakheid, ‘n gebrek het nie, vertel Moody.

Ons sleep ons sondigheid saam met ons.

En nou die eintlike punt: As ‘n mens regtig jou swakheid wil weet, moet ‘n mens iemand hê wat dit vir jou kan uitwys. God sou nooit vir Christus uitgestuur het as die mens nie hulp en versorging nodig gehad het nie. Ons is so swak en dom en gebreklik soos skape....

Dis nogal ‘n storie vol spronge, dink ek aanvanklik. Veral van die storie na die toepassing. Maar later besef ek, Moody wil die mistagogiese proses beklemtoon. En hy doen dit aan die hand van ‘n groeiende bewussyn van ‘n mens se feilbaarheid. Ons geestelike mondering het sy onbeskermde plekke wat ons blootstel. Ons moet dit weet – dit is deel van menslikheid. En juis daarom leef die mens in afhanklikheid van geestelike begeleiding. Daarsonder val die geestelike reis maklik vas. Met geestelike begeleiding word die reis verrykend.

Ons het reeds gesien dat die mistagogie een fundamentele uitgangspunt het: dit kan net plaasvind wanneer iemand uit sy eie na ‘n mistagoog gaan en sy hart vir daardie persoon oopmaak.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Hoe lyk die hemel?

Die mooi verhaal van Edward Hays gaan oor die vrou wat verskriklik graag meer omtrent die hemel wou weet. Sy het aanmekaar gebid dat God aan haar sou wys hoe die hemelse paradys is.

Op ‘n keer het sy toe ‘n droom. ‘n Engel kom haal haar hemel toe. Hulle loop in ‘n straat af totdat hulle by ‘n huis kom. Die engel sê haar aan om in die huis te gaan kyk vir ‘n antwoord op haar gebede.

Die plek lyk maar ordinêr. Sy stap dus maar met ‘n knaende hart daar in. Binne in sien sy ‘n paar mense. Een maak kos in die kombuis. Een sit in ‘n stoel en lees koerant. ‘n Paar kinders speel met hul speelgoed.

Sy loop maar ontnugter terug buitentoe na die engel.

“Is dit nou al wat daar aan die hemelse paradys is?” vra sy die engel.

Sy kry die antwoord: “Die mense wat jy in die huis gesien het, is nie in die hemelse paradys nie. Die hemel is in hul harte."

Onrustig die hart wat die voorhande vrede (en vreugde) miskyk omdat dit so gewoon lyk.


Saturday, June 26, 2010

Hoe God naby aan ons kom. Oor die Boek Openbaring




Openbaring 1:1-3: 1Die openbaring van Jesus Christus wat God Hom gegee het om aan sy diensknegte te toon wat gou moet gebeur, en wat Hy deur die sending van sy engel aan sy dienskneg Johannes te kenne gegee het, 2 wat getuig het van die woord van God en die getuienis van Jesus Christus alles wat hy gesien het.


Sommige mense huiwer nie om na ‘n riller-fliek te gaan kyk nie. Hulle sit die fliek deur, maar druk hulle oë toe wanneer daar dele is wat hulle té bang maak. Openbaring het dikwels dieselfde soort van invloed op mense. Hulle lees graag en getrou hulle Bybel. Maar vir Openbaring is hulle ‘n bietjie katvoet. Dit is ‘n boek wat hulle bang en ongemaklik maak. Daar is vir hulle te veel geweld en veroordeling in hierdie teks. Daarom lees hulle dit min of bly hulle eerder daarvan weg. Selfs ingeligte mense soos Luther het van Openbaring geskryf dat ‘n mens sy drome liewe in die Elbe moet smyt en Zwingli het vertel hoe min hy vir die boek voel. Dit is, het hy geskryf, tog nie ‘n bybelse boek nie.

Wat ‘n boek is Openbaring tog as ‘n mens eers na sy invloed op ons wêreld kyk: Mense in ekstreme nood het die boek naby aan hul hart gehou want deur die teks het God aan hul harte geraak: Bonhoeffer het dit gelees toe hy in die laaste dae van sy lewe in die tronk op sy teregstelling gewag het. Allan Boesak het in die donkerste dae van apartheid ‘n boek oor Openbaring geskryf wat wêreldwyd steeds weer gelees word. Selfs in die kunswêreld het die boek groot geeste besig gehou. Dürer het ‘n beroemde reeks van etse oor Openbaring gemaak. Handel se Messias, soos byvoorbeeld die Halleluja-koor en die aangrypende lied, Waardig is die Lam, is gebaseer op gedeeltes in Openbaring. En hoeveel mense is deur die eeue heen deur die musiek aangeraak, asof dit die draer was van hoop en inspirasie.

En hoeveel gewone gelowiges het deur die eeue heen troos gevind in die beelde van die hemelse stad, die goue strate, die trane wat opgedroog word.

Openbaring as ‘n boek vol visoene en drome, is nie uniek nie. Dit lyk baie soos die boek Daniël in die Ou Testament wat ook baie visioene vertel. Daarmee word al die verborgenhede oor God, die dieper betekenis van ons bestaan, onthul. Die hemel as die ruimte van God sny in op die wêreld as die ruimte van die mensdom.

Dwarsdeur die geskiedenis het die mensdom geglo dat daar meer is aan hierdie wêreld. Dinge kan nie hier ophou nie. Daar is meer aan die lewe as net om bloot te bestaan. Die kwaad wat onder mense aan die werk is, glo bybelskrywers, kan nie die finale woord sê of hê nie. In die wêreld van die mensdom is daar dus iets diepers vir die mens beskore. In hierdie boek, ervaar hulle, word daardie diepere dinge bekend gemaak en bedink: daar is dus hoop vir die wêreld. Daarom is Openbaring ‘n mistieke boek wat vir ons vertel wat agter die swaar sluier wat ons en God se wêrelde skei, gebeur.

Van die begin af is dit duidelik: hierdie onthulling, hierdie hoop op die dieper dinge, kom van Bo af, van buite die mens. Mense is geneig om mekaar uit te roei en om die hemelse lig in ons wêreld uit te doof. Ons kan die diepere dinge nie vanself ontdek nie. Ons het ‘n goddelike woord, van buite ons af, nodig om die verborge, hoopvolle dinge te kan ervaar.

Openbaring het so baie mense geïnspireer omdat dit ‘n boodskap wat ryk is aan hoop, vir mense onthul. Die eerste teken van hoop is in hierdie eerste vers te vind, naamlik, dat God self besig is om na die wêreld uit te reik. En die hoop is soveel sterker omdat dít is soos mense God leer ken het. Oral waar die lig van hoop uitgedoof is, het God telkens weer, getrou, vir mense weer opnuuut op hul geestelike reis die lig laat skyn. Die soekende, vraende mens wat op God wag, sal nie verniet bly vra en soek nie. Soos in die boek Daniël in die eerste testament, word ook hier, in die tyd van Jesus, God se wil vir mense bekend gemaak.

Hier kom ‘n profeet , die een wat God se woord bring, met beeldryke taal van hoop. Hier, deur die woord, kom God se lewegewende, transformerende aanraking. Dit is openbaring. Die verborgene word ‘n werklikheid. God kom in die wêreld in.

Die God van alle tye, in die ou bedeling en in die nuwe bedeling, skuif die gordyn weg om lig in ‘n ruimte van die soekers te laat skyn. Die mens en die wêreld word nie opgegee of alleen gelaat nie. God leef nie alleen nie, maar soek om deel te hê aan ons wêreld, daar te kom woon, alles in almal te wees. Dit is tyd vir die groot geheimenis van God se hart wat ‘n punt na die skepping trek.

Vanaf Openbaring se eerste vers, se eerste woorde, dus, gaan dit om ‘n transformerende verhouding tussen God en mens. Pure spiritualiteit.

Daarom is dit dalk tyd om ons vrese vir die boek, te besweer. Om te vra hoekom die boek dan soveel gelowiges geboei het.

'n Mens hoef nie lank te soek nie. Die eerste verse al vertel hoe vreemd 'n houding van vrees is. Hier reeds, is die leser aan die wonder, en, is die leser verwonderd oor die God wat soveel waag om uit te reik....




(Illustrasie: Ottenheinrich Bybel - die sewe kandelare. Mooi)

Friday, June 25, 2010

Donder en bliksem preke.

Ek het eergister die boeiende, selfs roerende beskrywing van Jonathan Edwards oor sy eie geestelike reis aangehaal. Dit is ‘n merkwaardige stuk waarin hy op ‘n baie intieme manier oor sy verhouding met God en sy verwondering vir God praat.

Maar wie is hierdie man?

Jonathan Edwards (1703-1758) is een van die mees invloedryke figure in die Amerikaanse godsdienstige wêreld. Sy intellektualiteit – hy het o.a. in gesprek getree met John Locke se filosofie – was indrukwekkend. Hy studeer aan Yale, word ‘n Presbiteriaanse predikant en sterf uiteindelik net voordat hy president sou word van wat later Princeton Universiteit sou word (aan ‘n inenting teen pokkies).

Hy is een van die bekendste figure in die geskiedenis van die Calvinisme in Amerika, met boeke soos Freedom of the Will en Original Sin. Hy word dikwels in spiritualiteitskringe bespreek as iemand wat ‘n unieke lewensreis afgelê het.

Edwards insig het nooit maar net op verstandelike dinge alleen gekonsentreer nie. Sy nadenke oor God het hom altyd in ‘n dieper soektog na God ingetrek. Hy is iemand wat persoonlike vroomheid en rasionele insig hoog geag het, hoewel hy steeds weer beklemtoon het dat volle kennis en insig slegs gebore word waar iemand ‘n ontmoeting met God gehad het.

Sommige meen dat sy boek, A treatise concerning religious affections, een van die mees sensitiewe boeke oor godsdiens is. Egte godsdiens, het hy geskryf, bestaan deels uit heilige gevoelens. Geloof is wat ‘n mens bewustelik ervaar, hoewel dit nie maar net verganklike gevoelens of sentimentele momente is nie. ‘n Lewe wat aan God gewy is en wat deugde najaag, is gewortel in houdings wat ‘n mens bewustelik aankweek in verwondering voor God se skoonheid en goedheid. Dit is, waarom Edwards so uitgebreid en so geboeid skryf oor God se heerlikheid – besef ek toe ek hierdie beskrywing oor hom lees.

Verwondering. In ontsag voor God. Teosentriese denke. En Calvinisties beslis.

Maar sy bydra op ander terreine is ook insiggewend. Hy word, trouens, weens sy insig in godsdienstige ervaring deur sommige selfs as die vader van die Amerikaanse sielkunde beskou – veral weens sy siening van die “hartsaanvoeling.” Geestelike insig, het hy geredeneer, is nie ‘n saak van die brein nie, maar van ‘n unieke, besondere ervaring. Dit kom tot stand wanneer iemand op ‘n direkte manier te doen kry met ‘n heilige werklikheid. Wanneer iemand tot dieper insig kom, ervaar die persoon iets wat anders is as alle ander aanvoelings of ervaringe. Ten grondslag van ‘n mens se geloof is daar dus ‘n ervaring van iets wat aan jou lewe totale betekenis gee.

Maar ek wil oor Edwards se spiritualiteit skryf. Barbara Green (in haar artikel oor Die Ou Testament in Christelike Spiritualiteit) beskryf hom as ‘n ingeligte, eerlike en welsprekende skrywer wat die moderne mens se worsteling met die Bybel as antieke boek illustreer – hoe gedateerd sy siening ook al vandag vir baie mag wees.

Edwards se spiritualiteit kom na vore in die persoonlike beskrywing van sy geestelike reis met God wat ek eergister bespreek het. Maar daar is ‘n ander, moeiliker en selfs hoogs omstrede kant van Edwards:

Edwards het op 8 Julie 1741 een van die beroemdste preke ooit in Enfield, Connecticut, gelewer. Die tema was: “Sondaars in die hand van ‘n woedende God.” Baie mense skryf dat hy deur daardie preek die grondslag gelê het van die donder en bliksem preke van later generasies. Die resepsie van die preek is tot vandag toe nog hoogs negatief. Dít, word gesê, is tipies van outydse herlewingsbewegings waarin die blou hel uit mense gepreek is. Die gewone publiek ken die preek as ‘n klassieke voorbeeld van opruiende, onverdraagsame en dreigende Christendom.

Vandag nog kry ‘n mens die nawerking daarvan wanneer mense hul verhouding met God verbind en beslissend knoop aan die vraag: “As jy vanaand sterf, waarheen gaan jy?” En die bedoeling is: As jy nie bekeerd is nie, gaan jy ‘n verskriklike straf in die hel tegemoet.

Baie, baie mense voel egter dat ‘n mens se verhouding met God nie op vrees gebou moet word nie. En ek sou byvoeg dat ‘n mens se verhouding met God nie gedryf moet word deur jou eie, persoonlike veilige tuiste by God in die hemel in die toekoms nie. ‘n Mens knoop nie ‘n verhouding met God aan om aan die veilige kant te bly nie. Dit is oneerlik.

‘n Mens se verhouding met God is gebou op God se onuitpreeklike liefde wat aan ‘n mens se lewe unieke sin gee.

Jy sal ook dikwels in kontemporêre denke sien dat gewaarsku word teen ‘n skewe benadering waarin ‘n mens God se oordeel in die hart van die evangelie plaas. Terwyl God se lewegewende liefde die fokus van Jesus se boodskap was.

Die Jonathan Edwards sentrum aan Yale Universiteit is ‘n belangrike navorsingssentrum oor hom. Hulle het die onderstaande bespreking van Edwards se beroemde/ berugte preek gegee. Verstaan hom in sy tyd, vra hulle. Let op hoe hy aansluit by ‘n sekere tradisie van preke. So het mense in daardie tyd gepraat, veral in die tyd van herlewing (The Great Awakening). Moet dus nie die preek te letterlik verstaan nie. Dit was die gangbare retoriek van daardie tyd. Onthou ook dat daar ander, sagte, boeiende kante aan Edwards is waarvoor hy eerder onthou moet word.

Lees maar self die argumente hier onder. Ek gee eers die preek self en dan die sentrum se verklaring.

‘n Mens kan nou sulke preke ignoreer, omdat dit herhaaldelik gebruik is om ‘n baie negatiewe beeld van die puriteinse tradisie uit te dra. En tog, dink ek saam met die sentrum is dit nodig dat ons dit lees en nugter daaroor moet dink. Dit sal lekker wees om hieroor ‘n paar besprekingssessies te hê. En om te kyk of só ‘n preek nie ‘n onderliggende denkpatroon blootlê nie wat Edwards se spiritualiteit bevraagteken en kompromiteer.

Van my kant af net dit: toe ek Edwards vir die eerste keer gelees het, was sy verwondering oor God vir my spesiaal. Sy lewensbespreking wat so vol verlange na God is, sy sagte taal oor sy ervaring van God, sy siening van God se heerlikheid is opvallend. Dit het my laat dink aan die mistieke tradisie wat steeds weer terugskrik voor die goddelike aanraking. Dit is ‘n skok om voor God te staan, om heilige grond te betree. Dit is nie verniet dat “eerbied vir God,” of meer nog: “ontsag vir God” ‘n sentrale motief in spiritualiteit is nie. In sy lewensverhaal is dit so mooi uitgewerk dat ‘n mens daardeur aangetrek word en aangespreek voel. Hier is iemand wat alles feil het vir God, om God se onthalwe.

Nou wat dan van die preek? Ek besef, terwyl ek dit lees, hoe ‘n harde preek dit is. Maar, ‘n mens moet maar eerlik wees en sê dat Bybelskrywers self eintlik dikwels oor angs vir God praat. Daar is dele in die Bybel wat nie sag praat oor wie God is nie.

Spiritualiteit het egter steeds beklemtoon dat hierdie ontsag vir God die begin en begeleier is van ‘n liefdesreis met God en vir ons bring by die volmaakte eenwording met God in liefde. Dit is eenvoudig so dat die Bybel ook oor die wraak van God praat, of oor God se oordeel.

Dit was alles pogings, hierdie harde taal van angs, wraak en oordeel, om iets weer te gee van God se heiligheid, andersheid, uniekheid, regverdigheid en opstand teen kwaad of ongeregtigheid.

Bonhoeffer het naas die Psalms veral Openbaring gelees toe hy sy laaste dae in die tronk op sy teregstelling gewag het. Hy het vasgehou aan ‘n boek wat God se verskriklike oordeel oor die kwaad in al sy verleidelike en ekstreme vorme verkondig het. In sy tyd was dit vir hom die regte boodskap.

My punt is dus dit: Ons kan van God ‘n God van liefde maak en daarmee die ontsag vir God kwytraak. Die sentrum sê juis dat Edwards sy preek gehou het in ‘n konteks van ‘n klipharde, onbekeerlike samelewing. Sou Edwards se preek nie gesien kan word as sy manier om die ontsag van God te verwoord nie – hoe kru dit ook al mag oorkom?

Is dit ‘n goeie argument?

Ek kry vanaand van Sam ‘n verslaggie van Shiloh se werksaamhede onder kinders waarin die projekleier heel indirek meld van die probleme wat hulle ook ondervind. Dit is ‘n pragtige projek wat ‘n mens diep beïndruk oor hul liefdeswerk onder verwaarloosde, mishandelde en verworpe kinders. Die projekleier skryf nie veel oor die probleme nie, maar op ‘n stadium meld sy, desperaat, dat mense eendag voor God verantwoording sal moet doen vir wat hulle hul kinders aandoen.

Ek lees hierdie stukkie heilige verontwaardiging en woede raak. Dit tref my.

As mens maar meer ontsag het vir God, sal hulle versigtiger oor hul eie doen en late wees...

Het ons God gedomestiseer? ‘n Liewe God gemaak. En in die proses ons kragtige getuienis teen die kwaad gekompromiteer?

Ek sal nie soos Edwards kan preek nie. Ons sal in nuwe tye op nuwe maniere moet sê dat die Evangelie ‘n mens voor dood-ernstige keuses stel. Om met God te doen te kry, is ‘n saak van lewe en dood. Sou dít die boodskap wees wat sy luisteraars gehoor het?

Ek sien uit na besprekings hieroor.

Hier is die preek:

Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God
Jonathan Edwards (1703-1758)
Enfield, Connecticut
July 8, 1741
Their foot shall slide in due time. Deuteronomy 32:35
In this verse is threatened the vengeance of God on the wicked unbelieving Israelites, who were God's visible people, and who lived under the means of grace; but who, notwithstanding all God's wonderful works towards them, remained (as vers 28.) void of counsel, having no understanding in them. Under all the cultivations of heaven, they brought forth bitter and poisonous fruit; as in the two verses next preceding the text. -- The expression I have chosen for my text, their foot shall slide in due time, seems to imply the following things, relating to the punishment and destruction to which these wicked Israelites were exposed.
1. That they were always exposed to destruction; as one that stands or walks in slippery places is always exposed to fall. This is implied in the manner of their destruction coming upon them, being represented by their foot sliding. The same is expressed, Psalm 73:18. "Surely thou didst set them in slippery places; thou castedst them down into destruction."
2. It implies, that they were always exposed to sudden unexpected destruction. As he that walks in slippery places is every moment liable to fall, he cannot foresee one moment whether he shall stand or fall the next; and when he does fall, he falls at once without warning: Which is also expressed in Psalm 73:18,19. "Surely thou didst set them in slippery places; thou castedst them down into destruction: How are they brought into desolation as in a moment!"
3. Another thing implied is, that they are liable to fall of themselves, without being thrown down by the hand of another; as he that stands or walks on slippery ground needs nothing but his own weight to throw him down.
4. That the reason why they are not fallen already and do not fall now is only that God's appointed time is not come. For it is said, that when that due time, or appointed time comes, their foot shall slide. Then they shall be left to fall, as they are inclined by their own weight. God will not hold them up in these slippery places any longer, but will let them go; and then, at that very instant, they shall fall into destruction; as he that stands on such slippery declining ground, on the edge of a pit, he cannot stand alone, when he is let go he immediately falls and is lost.
The observation from the words that I would now insist upon is this. -- "There is nothing that keeps wicked men at any one moment out of hell, but the mere pleasure of God." -- By the mere pleasure of God, I mean his sovereign pleasure, his arbitrary will, restrained by no obligation, hindered by no manner of difficulty, any more than if nothing else but God's mere will had in the least degree, or in any respect whatsoever, any hand in the preservation of wicked men one moment. -- The truth of this observation may appear by the following considerations.
1. There is no want of power in God to cast wicked men into hell at any moment. Men's hands cannot be strong when God rises up. The strongest have no power to resist him, nor can any deliver out of his hands. -- He is not only able to cast wicked men into hell, but he can most easily do it. Sometimes an earthly prince meets with a great deal of difficulty to subdue a rebel, who has found means to fortify himself, and has made himself strong by the numbers of his followers. But it is not so with God. There is no fortress that is any defence from the power of God. Though hand join in hand, and vast multitudes of God's enemies combine and associate themselves, they are easily broken in pieces. They are as great heaps of light chaff before the whirlwind; or large quantities of dry stubble before devouring flames. We find it easy to tread on and crush a worm that we see crawling on the earth; so it is easy for us to cut or singe a slender thread that any thing hangs by: thus easy is it for God, when he pleases, to cast his enemies down to hell. What are we, that we should think to stand before him, at whose rebuke the earth trembles, and before whom the rocks are thrown down?
2. They deserve to be cast into hell; so that divine justice never stands in the way, it makes no objection against God's using his power at any moment to destroy them. Yea, on the contrary, justice calls aloud for an infinite punishment of their sins. Divine justice says of the tree that brings forth such grapes of Sodom, "Cut it down, why cumbereth it the ground?" Luke 13:7. The sword of divine justice is every moment brandished over their heads, and it is nothing but the hand of arbitrary mercy, and God's mere will, that holds it back.
3. They are already under a sentence of condemnation to hell. They do not only justly deserve to be cast down thither, but the sentence of the law of God, that eternal and immutable rule of righteousness that God has fixed between him and mankind, is gone out against them, and stands against them; so that they are bound over already to hell. John 3:18. "He that believeth not is condemned already." So that every unconverted man properly belongs to hell; that is his place; from thence he is, John 8:23. "Ye are from beneath:" And thither he is bound; it is the place that justice, and God's word, and the sentence of his unchangeable law assign to him.
4. They are now the objects of that very same anger and wrath of God, that is expressed in the torments of hell. And the reason why they do not go down to hell at each moment, is not because God, in whose power they are, is not then very angry with them; as he is with many miserable creatures now tormented in hell, who there feel and bear the fierceness of his wrath. Yea, God is a great deal more angry with great numbers that are now on earth: yea, doubtless, with many that are now in this congregation, who it may be are at ease, than he is with many of those who are now in the flames of hell.
So that it is not because God is unmindful of their wickedness, and does not resent it, that he does not let loose his hand and cut them off. God is not altogether such an one as themselves, though they may imagine him to be so. The wrath of God burns against them, their damnation does not slumber; the pit is prepared, the fire is made ready, the furnace is now hot, ready to receive them; the flames do now rage and glow. The glittering sword is whet, and held over them, and the pit hath opened its mouth under them.
5. The devil stands ready to fall upon them, and seize them as his own, at what moment God shall permit him. They belong to him; he has their souls in his possession, and under his dominion. The scripture represents them as his goods, Luke 11:12. The devils watch them; they are ever by them at their right hand; they stand waiting for them, like greedy hungry lions that see their prey, and expect to have it, but are for the present kept back. If God should withdraw his hand, by which they are restrained, they would in one moment fly upon their poor souls. The old serpent is gaping for them; hell opens its mouth wide to receive them; and if God should permit it, they would be hastily swallowed up and lost.
6. There are in the souls of wicked men those hellish principles reigning, that would presently kindle and flame out into hell fire, if it were not for God's restraints. There is laid in the very nature of carnal men, a foundation for the torments of hell. There are those corrupt principles, in reigning power in them, and in full possession of them, that are seeds of hell fire. These principles are active and powerful, exceeding violent in their nature, and if it were not for the restraining hand of God upon them, they would soon break out, they would flame out after the same manner as the same corruptions, the same enmity does in the hearts of damned souls, and would beget the same torments as they do in them. The souls of the wicked are in scripture compared to the troubled sea, Isa. 57:20. For the present, God restrains their wickedness by his mighty power, as he does the raging waves of the troubled sea, saying, "Hitherto shalt thou come, but no further;" but if God should withdraw that restraining power, it would soon carry all before it. Sin is the ruin and misery of the soul; it is destructive in its nature; and if God should leave it without restraint, there would need nothing else to make the soul perfectly miserable. The corruption of the heart of man is immoderate and boundless in its fury; and while wicked men live here, it is like fire pent up by God's restraints, whereas if it were let loose, it would set on fire the course of nature; and as the heart is now a sink of sin, so if sin was not restrained, it would immediately turn the soul into fiery oven, or a furnace of fire and brimstone.
7. It is no security to wicked men for one moment, that there are no visible means of death at hand. It is no security to a natural man, that he is now in health, and that he does not see which way he should now immediately go out of the world by any accident, and that there is no visible danger in any respect in his circumstances. The manifold and continual experience of the world in all ages, shows this is no evidence, that a man is not on the very brink of eternity, and that the next step will not be into another world. The unseen, unthought-of ways and means of persons going suddenly out of the world are innumerable and inconceivable. Unconverted men walk over the pit of hell on a rotten covering, and there are innumerable places in this covering so weak that they will not bear their weight, and these places are not seen. The arrows of death fly unseen at noon-day; the sharpest sight cannot discern them. God has so many different unsearchable ways of taking wicked men out of the world and sending them to hell, that there is nothing to make it appear, that God had need to be at the expense of a miracle, or go out of the ordinary course of his providence, to destroy any wicked man, at any moment. All the means that there are of sinners going out of the world, are so in God's hands, and so universally and absolutely subject to his power and determination, that it does not depend at all the less on the mere will of God, whether sinners shall at any moment go to hell, than if means were never made use of, or at all concerned in the case.
8. Natural men's prudence and care to preserve their own lives, or the care of others to preserve them, do not secure them a moment. To this, divine providence and universal experience do also bear testimony. There is this clear evidence that men's own wisdom is no security to them from death; that if it were otherwise we should see some difference between the wise and politic men of the world, and others, with regard to their liableness to early and unexpected death: but how is it in fact? Eccles. 2:16. "How dieth the wise man? even as the fool."
9. All wicked men's pains and contrivance which they use to escape hell, while they continue to reject Christ, and so remain wicked men, do not secure them from hell one moment. Almost every natural man that hears of hell, flatters himself that he shall escape it; he depends upon himself for his own security; he flatters himself in what he has done, in what he is now doing, or what he intends to do. Every one lays out matters in his own mind how he shall avoid damnation, and flatters himself that he contrives well for himself, and that his schemes will not fail. They hear indeed that there are but few saved, and that the greater part of men that have died heretofore are gone to hell; but each one imagines that he lays out matters better for his own escape than others have done. He does not intend to come to that place of torment; he says within himself, that he intends to take effectual care, and to order matters so for himself as not to fail.
But the foolish children of men miserably delude themselves in their own schemes, and in confidence in their own strength and wisdom; they trust to nothing but a shadow. The greater part of those who heretofore have lived under the same means of grace, and are now dead, are undoubtedly gone to hell; and it was not because they were not as wise as those who are now alive: it was not because they did not lay out matters as well for themselves to secure their own escape. If we could speak with them, and inquire of them, one by one, whether they expected, when alive, and when they used to hear about hell, ever to be the subjects of misery: we doubtless, should hear one and another reply, "No, I never intended to come here: I had laid out matters otherwise in my mind; I thought I should contrive well for myself -- I thought my scheme good. I intended to take effectual care; but it came upon me unexpected; I did not look for it at that time, and in that manner; it came as a thief -- Death outwitted me: God's wrath was too quick for me. Oh, my cursed foolishness! I was flattering myself, and pleasing myself with vain dreams of what I would do hereafter; and when I was saying, Peace and safety, then sudden destruction came upon me."
10. God has laid himself under no obligation, by any promise to keep any natural man out of hell one moment. God certainly has made no promises either of eternal life, or of any deliverance or preservation from eternal death, but what are contained in the covenant of grace, the promises that are given in Christ, in whom all the promises are yea and amen. But surely they have no interest in the promises of the covenant of grace who are not the children of the covenant, who do not believe in any of the promises, and have no interest in the Mediator of the covenant.
So that, whatever some have imagined and pretended about promises made to natural men's earnest seeking and knocking, it is plain and manifest, that whatever pains a natural man takes in religion, whatever prayers he makes, till he believes in Christ, God is under no manner of obligation to keep him a moment from eternal destruction.
So that, thus it is that natural men are held in the hand of God, over the pit of hell; they have deserved the fiery pit, and are already sentenced to it; and God is dreadfully provoked, his anger is as great towards them as to those that are actually suffering the executions of the fierceness of his wrath in hell, and they have done nothing in the least to appease or abate that anger, neither is God in the least bound by any promise to hold them up one moment; the devil is waiting for them, hell is gaping for them, the flames gather and flash about them, and would fain lay hold on them, and swallow them up; the fire pent up in their own hearts is struggling to break out: and they have no interest in any Mediator, there are no means within reach that can be any security to them. In short, they have no refuge, nothing to take hold of; all that preserves them every moment is the mere arbitrary will, and uncovenanted, unobliged forbearance of an incensed God.
Application
The use of this awful subject may be for awakening unconverted persons in this congregation. This that you have heard is the case of every one of you that are out of Christ. -- That world of misery, that lake of burning brimstone, is extended abroad under you. There is the dreadful pit of the glowing flames of the wrath of God; there is hell's wide gaping mouth open; and you have nothing to stand upon, nor any thing to take hold of; there is nothing between you and hell but the air; it is only the power and mere pleasure of God that holds you up.
You probably are not sensible of this; you find you are kept out of hell, but do not see the hand of God in it; but look at other things, as the good state of your bodily constitution, your care of your own life, and the means you use for your own preservation. But indeed these things are nothing; if God should withdraw his hand, they would avail no more to keep you from falling, than the thin air to hold up a person that is suspended in it.
Your wickedness makes you as it were heavy as lead, and to tend downwards with great weight and pressure towards hell; and if God should let you go, you would immediately sink and swiftly descend and plunge into the bottomless gulf, and your healthy constitution, and your own care and prudence, and best contrivance, and all your righteousness, would have no more influence to uphold you and keep you out of hell, than a spider's web would have to stop a falling rock. Were it not for the sovereign pleasure of God, the earth would not bear you one moment; for you are a burden to it; the creation groans with you; the creature is made subject to the bondage of your corruption, not willingly; the sun does not willingly shine upon you to give you light to serve sin and Satan; the earth does not willingly yield her increase to satisfy your lusts; nor is it willingly a stage for your wickedness to be acted upon; the air does not willingly serve you for breath to maintain the flame of life in your vitals, while you spend your life in the service of God's enemies. God's creatures are good, and were made for men to serve God with, and do not willingly subserve to any other purpose, and groan when they are abused to purposes so directly contrary to their nature and end. And the world would spew you out, were it not for the sovereign hand of him who hath subjected it in hope. There are the black clouds of God's wrath now hanging directly over your heads, full of the dreadful storm, and big with thunder; and were it not for the restraining hand of God, it would immediately burst forth upon you. The sovereign pleasure of God, for the present, stays his rough wind; otherwise it would come with fury, and your destruction would come like a whirlwind, and you would be like the chaff on the summer threshing floor.
The wrath of God is like great waters that are dammed for the present; they increase more and more, and rise higher and higher, till an outlet is given; and the longer the stream is stopped, the more rapid and mighty is its course, when once it is let loose. It is true, that judgment against your evil works has not been executed hitherto; the floods of God's vengeance have been withheld; but your guilt in the mean time is constantly increasing, and you are every day treasuring up more wrath; the waters are constantly rising, and waxing more and more mighty; and there is nothing but the mere pleasure of God, that holds the waters back, that are unwilling to be stopped, and press hard to go forward. If God should only withdraw his hand from the flood-gate, it would immediately fly open, and the fiery floods of the fierceness and wrath of God, would rush forth with inconceivable fury, and would come upon you with omnipotent power; and if your strength were ten thousand times greater than it is, yea, ten thousand times greater than the strength of the stoutest, sturdiest devil in hell, it would be nothing to withstand or endure it.
The bow of God's wrath is bent, and the arrow made ready on the string, and justice bends the arrow at your heart, and strains the bow, and it is nothing but the mere pleasure of God, and that of an angry God, without any promise or obligation at all, that keeps the arrow one moment from being made drunk with your blood. Thus all you that never passed under a great change of heart, by the mighty power of the Spirit of God upon your souls; all you that were never born again, and made new creatures, and raised from being dead in sin, to a state of new, and before altogether unexperienced light and life, are in the hands of an angry God. However you may have reformed your life in many things, and may have had religious affections, and may keep up a form of religion in your families and closets, and in the house of God, it is nothing but his mere pleasure that keeps you from being this moment swallowed up in everlasting destruction. However unconvinced you may now be of the truth of what you hear, by and by you will be fully convinced of it. Those that are gone from being in the like circumstances with you, see that it was so with them; for destruction came suddenly upon most of them; when they expected nothing of it, and while they were saying, Peace and safety: now they see, that those things on which they depended for peace and safety, were nothing but thin air and empty shadows.
The God that holds you over the pit of hell, much as one holds a spider, or some loathsome insect over the fire, abhors you, and is dreadfully provoked: his wrath towards you burns like fire; he looks upon you as worthy of nothing else, but to be cast into the fire; he is of purer eyes than to bear to have you in his sight; you are ten thousand times more abominable in his eyes, than the most hateful venomous serpent is in ours. You have offended him infinitely more than ever a stubborn rebel did his prince; and yet it is nothing but his hand that holds you from falling into the fire every moment. It is to be ascribed to nothing else, that you did not go to hell the last night; that you was suffered to awake again in this world, after you closed your eyes to sleep. And there is no other reason to be given, why you have not dropped into hell since you arose in the morning, but that God's hand has held you up. There is no other reason to be given why you have not gone to hell, since you have sat here in the house of God, provoking his pure eyes by your sinful wicked manner of attending his solemn worship. Yea, there is nothing else that is to be given as a reason why you do not this very moment drop down into hell.
O sinner! Consider the fearful danger you are in: it is a great furnace of wrath, a wide and bottomless pit, full of the fire of wrath, that you are held over in the hand of that God, whose wrath is provoked and incensed as much against you, as against many of the damned in hell. You hang by a slender thread, with the flames of divine wrath flashing about it, and ready every moment to singe it, and burn it asunder; and you have no interest in any Mediator, and nothing to lay hold of to save yourself, nothing to keep off the flames of wrath, nothing of your own, nothing that you ever have done, nothing that you can do, to induce God to spare you one moment. -- And consider here more particularly,
1. Whose wrath it is: it is the wrath of the infinite God. If it were only the wrath of man, though it were of the most potent prince, it would be comparatively little to be regarded. The wrath of kings is very much dreaded, especially of absolute monarchs, who have the possessions and lives of their subjects wholly in their power, to be disposed of at their mere will. Prov. 20:2. "The fear of a king is as the roaring of a lion: Whoso provoketh him to anger, sinneth against his own soul." The subject that very much enrages an arbitrary prince, is liable to suffer the most extreme torments that human art can invent, or human power can inflict. But the greatest earthly potentates in their greatest majesty and strength, and when clothed in their greatest terrors, are but feeble, despicable worms of the dust, in comparison of the great and almighty Creator and King of heaven and earth. It is but little that they can do, when most enraged, and when they have exerted the utmost of their fury. All the kings of the earth, before God, are as grasshoppers; they are nothing, and less than nothing: both their love and their hatred is to be despised. The wrath of the great King of kings, is as much more terrible than theirs, as his majesty is greater. Luke 12:4,5. "And I say unto you, my friends, Be not afraid of them that kill the body, and after that, have no more that they can do. But I will forewarn you whom you shall fear: fear him, which after he hath killed, hath power to cast into hell: yea, I say unto you, Fear him."
2. It is the fierceness of his wrath that you are exposed to. We often read of the fury of God; as in Isa. 59:18. "According to their deeds, accordingly he will repay fury to his adversaries." So Isa. 66:15. "For behold, the Lord will come with fire, and with his chariots like a whirlwind, to render his anger with fury, and his rebuke with flames of fire." And in many other places. So, Rev. 19:15, we read of "the wine press of the fierceness and wrath of Almighty God." The words are exceeding terrible. If it had only been said, "the wrath of God," the words would have implied that which is infinitely dreadful: but it is "the fierceness and wrath of God." The fury of God! the fierceness of Jehovah! Oh, how dreadful that must be! Who can utter or conceive what such expressions carry in them! But it is also "the fierceness and wrath of almighty God." As though there would be a very great manifestation of his almighty power in what the fierceness of his wrath should inflict, as though omnipotence should be as it were enraged, and exerted, as men are wont to exert their strength in the fierceness of their wrath. Oh! then, what will be the consequence! What will become of the poor worms that shall suffer it! Whose hands can be strong? And whose heart can endure? To what a dreadful, inexpressible, inconceivable depth of misery must the poor creature be sunk who shall be the subject of this!
Consider this, you that are here present, that yet remain in an unregenerate state. That God will execute the fierceness of his anger, implies, that he will inflict wrath without any pity. When God beholds the ineffable extremity of your case, and sees your torment to be so vastly disproportioned to your strength, and sees how your poor soul is crushed, and sinks down, as it were, into an infinite gloom; he will have no compassion upon you, he will not forbear the executions of his wrath, or in the least lighten his hand; there shall be no moderation or mercy, nor will God then at all stay his rough wind; he will have no regard to your welfare, nor be at all careful lest you should suffer too much in any other sense, than only that you shall not suffer beyond what strict justice requires. Nothing shall be withheld, because it is so hard for you to bear. Ezek. 8:18. "Therefore will I also deal in fury: mine eye shall not spare, neither will I have pity; and though they cry in mine ears with a loud voice, yet I will not hear them." Now God stands ready to pity you; this is a day of mercy; you may cry now with some encouragement of obtaining mercy. But when once the day of mercy is past, your most lamentable and dolorous cries and shrieks will be in vain; you will be wholly lost and thrown away of God, as to any regard to your welfare. God will have no other use to put you to, but to suffer misery; you shall be continued in being to no other end; for you will be a vessel of wrath fitted to destruction; and there will be no other use of this vessel, but to be filled full of wrath. God will be so far from pitying you when you cry to him, that it is said he will only "laugh and mock," Prov. 1:25,26,etc.
How awful are those words, Isa. 63:3, which are the words of the great God. "I will tread them in mine anger, and will trample them in my fury, and their blood shall be sprinkled upon my garments, and I will stain all my raiment." It is perhaps impossible to conceive of words that carry in them greater manifestations of these three things, viz. contempt, and hatred, and fierceness of indignation. If you cry to God to pity you, he will be so far from pitying you in your doleful case, or showing you the least regard or favour, that instead of that, he will only tread you under foot. And though he will know that you cannot bear the weight of omnipotence treading upon you, yet he will not regard that, but he will crush you under his feet without mercy; he will crush out your blood, and make it fly, and it shall be sprinkled on his garments, so as to stain all his raiment. He will not only hate you, but he will have you in the utmost contempt: no place shall be thought fit for you, but under his feet to be trodden down as the mire of the streets.
3. The misery you are exposed to is that which God will inflict to that end, that he might show what that wrath of Jehovah is. God hath had it on his heart to show to angels and men, both how excellent his love is, and also how terrible his wrath is. Sometimes earthly kings have a mind to show how terrible their wrath is, by the extreme punishments they would execute on those that would provoke them. Nebuchadnezzar, that mighty and haughty monarch of the Chaldean empire, was willing to show his wrath when enraged with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego; and accordingly gave orders that the burning fiery furnace should be heated seven times hotter than it was before; doubtless, it was raised to the utmost degree of fierceness that human art could raise it. But the great God is also willing to show his wrath, and magnify his awful majesty and mighty power in the extreme sufferings of his enemies. Rom. 9:22. "What if God, willing to show his wrath, and to make his power known, endured with much long-suffering the vessels of wrath fitted to destruction?" And seeing this is his design, and what he has determined, even to show how terrible the unrestrained wrath, the fury and fierceness of Jehovah is, he will do it to effect. There will be something accomplished and brought to pass that will be dreadful with a witness. When the great and angry God hath risen up and executed his awful vengeance on the poor sinner, and the wretch is actually suffering the infinite weight and power of his indignation, then will God call upon the whole universe to behold that awful majesty and mighty power that is to be seen in it. Isa. 33:12-14. "And the people shall be as the burnings of lime, as thorns cut up shall they be burnt in the fire. Hear ye that are far off, what I have done; and ye that are near, acknowledge my might. The sinners in Zion are afraid; fearfulness hath surprised the hypocrites," etc.
Thus it will be with you that are in an unconverted state, if you continue in it; the infinite might, and majesty, and terribleness of the omnipotent God shall be magnified upon you, in the ineffable strength of your torments. You shall be tormented in the presence of the holy angels, and in the presence of the Lamb; and when you shall be in this state of suffering, the glorious inhabitants of heaven shall go forth and look on the awful spectacle, that they may see what the wrath and fierceness of the Almighty is; and when they have seen it, they will fall down and adore that great power and majesty. Isa. 66:23,24. "And it shall come to pass, that from one new moon to another, and from one sabbath to another, shall all flesh come to worship before me, saith the Lord. And they shall go forth and look upon the carcasses of the men that have transgressed against me; for their worm shall not die, neither shall their fire be quenched, and they shall be an abhorring unto all flesh."
4. It is everlasting wrath. It would be dreadful to suffer this fierceness and wrath of Almighty God one moment; but you must suffer it to all eternity. There will be no end to this exquisite horrible misery. When you look forward, you shall see a long for ever, a boundless duration before you, which will swallow up your thoughts, and amaze your soul; and you will absolutely despair of ever having any deliverance, any end, any mitigation, any rest at all. You will know certainly that you must wear out long ages, millions of millions of ages, in wrestling and conflicting with this almighty merciless vengeance; and then when you have so done, when so many ages have actually been spent by you in this manner, you will know that all is but a point to what remains. So that your punishment will indeed be infinite. Oh, who can express what the state of a soul in such circumstances is! All that we can possibly say about it, gives but a very feeble, faint representation of it; it is inexpressible and inconceivable: For "who knows the power of God's anger?"
How dreadful is the state of those that are daily and hourly in the danger of this great wrath and infinite misery! But this is the dismal case of every soul in this congregation that has not been born again, however moral and strict, sober and religious, they may otherwise be. Oh that you would consider it, whether you be young or old! There is reason to think, that there are many in this congregation now hearing this discourse, that will actually be the subjects of this very misery to all eternity. We know not who they are, or in what seats they sit, or what thoughts they now have. It may be they are now at ease, and hear all these things without much disturbance, and are now flattering themselves that they are not the persons, promising themselves that they shall escape. If we knew that there was one person, and but one, in the whole congregation, that was to be the subject of this misery, what an awful thing would it be to think of! If we knew who it was, what an awful sight would it be to see such a person! How might all the rest of the congregation lift up a lamentable and bitter cry over him! But, alas! instead of one, how many is it likely will remember this discourse in hell? And it would be a wonder, if some that are now present should not be in hell in a very short time, even before this year is out. And it would be no wonder if some persons, that now sit here, in some seats of this meeting-house, in health, quiet and secure, should be there before tomorrow morning. Those of you that finally continue in a natural condition, that shall keep out of hell longest will be there in a little time! your damnation does not slumber; it will come swiftly, and, in all probability, very suddenly upon many of you. You have reason to wonder that you are not already in hell. It is doubtless the case of some whom you have seen and known, that never deserved hell more than you, and that heretofore appeared as likely to have been now alive as you. Their case is past all hope; they are crying in extreme misery and perfect despair; but here you are in the land of the living and in the house of God, and have an opportunity to obtain salvation. What would not those poor damned hopeless souls give for one day's opportunity such as you now enjoy!
And now you have an extraordinary opportunity, a day wherein Christ has thrown the door of mercy wide open, and stands in calling and crying with a loud voice to poor sinners; a day wherein many are flocking to him, and pressing into the kingdom of God. Many are daily coming from the east, west, north and south; many that were very lately in the same miserable condition that you are in, are now in a happy state, with their hearts filled with love to him who has loved them, and washed them from their sins in his own blood, and rejoicing in hope of the glory of God. How awful is it to be left behind at such a day! To see so many others feasting, while you are pining and perishing! To see so many rejoicing and singing for joy of heart, while you have cause to mourn for sorrow of heart, and howl for vexation of spirit! How can you rest one moment in such a condition? Are not your souls as precious as the souls of the people at Suffield, where they are flocking from day to day to Christ?
Are there not many here who have lived long in the world, and are not to this day born again? and so are aliens from the commonwealth of Israel, and have done nothing ever since they have lived, but treasure up wrath against the day of wrath? Oh, sirs, your case, in an especial manner, is extremely dangerous. Your guilt and hardness of heart is extremely great. Do you not see how generality persons of your years are passed over and left, in the present remarkable and wonderful dispensation of God's mercy? You had need to consider yourselves, and awake thoroughly out of sleep. You cannot bear the fierceness and wrath of the infinite God. -- And you, young men, and young women, will you neglect this precious season which you now enjoy, when so many others of your age are renouncing all youthful vanities, and flocking to Christ? You especially have now an extraordinary opportunity; but if you neglect it, it will soon be with you as with those persons who spent all the precious days of youth in sin, and are now come to such a dreadful pass in blindness and hardness. -- And you, children, who are unconverted, do not you know that you are going down to hell, to bear the dreadful wrath of that God, who is now angry with you every day and every night? Will you be content to be the children of the devil, when so many other children in the land are converted, and are become the holy and happy children of the King of kings?
And let every one that is yet out of Christ, and hanging over the pit of hell, whether they be old men and women, or middle aged, or young people, or little children, now hearken to the loud calls of God's word and providence. This acceptable year of the Lord, a day of such great favour to some, will doubtless be a day of as remarkable vengeance to others. Men's hearts harden, and their guilt increases apace at such a day as this, if they neglect their souls; and never was there so great danger of such persons being given up to hardness of heart and blindness of mind. God seems now to be hastily gathering in his elect in all parts of the land; and probably the greater part of adult persons that ever shall be saved, will be brought in now in a little time, and that it will be as it was on the great out-pouring of the Spirit upon the Jews in the apostles' days; the election will obtain, and the rest will be blinded. If this should be the case with you, you will eternally curse this day, and will curse the day that ever you was born, to see such a season of the pouring out of God's Spirit, and will wish that you had died and gone to hell before you had seen it. Now undoubtedly it is, as it was in the days of John the Baptist, the axe is in an extraordinary manner laid at the root of the trees, that every tree which brings not forth good fruit, may be hewn down and cast into the fire.
Therefore, let every one that is out of Christ, now awake and fly from the wrath to come. The wrath of Almighty God is now undoubtedly hanging over a great part of this congregation. Let every one fly out of Sodom: "Haste and escape for your lives, look not behind you, escape to the mountain, lest you be consumed."

Inleiding van die Sentrum oor die preek:
Anthologized in high school and college textbooks, Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God represents in many persons’ minds the bleak, cruel, and hell-bent outlook of Edwards and his Puritan predecessors. But of course such a representation is only a caricature, for Sinners, if it represents anything, stands for only a small part of Edwards’s view of the relationship between humankind and God. As a specially crafted awakening sermon, Sinners was aimed at a particularly hard-hearted congregation. But, at the same time, the awakening sermon and all it expressed—the awful weight of sin, the wrath of an infinitely holy God, and the unexpectedness of the moment when God will execute justice—were integral to Edwards’s theology. This sermon, therefore, deserves to be studied and meditated on for its own sake, but also as part of a larger vision of the spiritual life.



Hier is die kommentaar van die Jonathan Edwards sentrum op die preek (sien http://edwards.yale.edu/education/one-day):

Jonathan Edwards’ infamous “Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God” was first preached on July 8th, 1741 at the height of New England’s first Great Awakening. Since that time, the sermon has been re-preached, published, and widely circulated. “Sinners” has become the very stuff of American legend; it is one of the most anthologized pieces of writing in America, and it has long been a part of American history and literature curricula. The popularity of the sermon is, however, a mixed blessing. While the sermon’s circulation has fortunately acquainted many Americans with the impressive legacy of Jonathan Edwards, the way in which the sermon is often read or taught has significantly skewed the popular understanding of Edwards and his Puritan heritage in an unfairly negative direction. In order to better understand “Sinners” in its appropriate context, it is important to consider the environment in which the sermon was preached, the intentions of Edwards in delivering the sermon, the strategies used by Puritan preachers, and the place of “Sinners” within the body of Edwards’ work.
Edwards first preached an early version of “Sinners” at his parish in Northampton, Massachusetts, but the sermon in its full form was not heard until July 8th, 1741, when Edwards preached the version we have come to know in Enfield, Connecticut, where he was a guest. The sermon was, for Edwards, fairly brief, but its message was inestimably powerful. The sermon, although frightening, was very popular with New England audiences. Edwards was often invited to re-preach the sermon, which he did so frequently that he eventually could recite the sermon almost entirely from memory, with only a small outline to guide him.
The subjects touched upon in the sermon – namely, human sinfulness, the uncertainty of existence, God’s ultimate power over salvation, the need for a Christian lifestyle, the chance of redemption, and the importance of conversion – were very familiar to New England churchgoers. When Edwards preached “Sinners,” the Great Awakening was fully underway, and the doctrinal notion of “conversion” was a topic with which churchgoers were eminently familiar. According to Puritan doctrine, the process of conversion was more complicated than simply professing allegiance to a church; conversion involved the influence of divine grace, which could cause a person to be truly awakened to God and Christianity. Once converted, a person had a chance of salvation, but only God could induce conversion.
The message of “Sinners” was a familiar and important one for the Puritans. They couldn’t know whether they were truly converted, and they couldn’t make their conversion happen; the most they could do, as Edwards implied, was to make their conversion more likely by living a truly Christian life, characterized by both internal thought and external action. In order to foster the notion that humans could not merit their own conversion or salvation, Edwards emphasized in “Sinners” the fact that God had inexplicably chosen not to cast many sinners into hell. Through “Sinners,” Edwards attempted to demonstrate that God was omnipotent and beyond human understanding, an assertion that defied the tendency to anthropomorphize God and to impose human logic upon divine actions. Edwards emphasized the importance of the New Birth, which entailed living a Christian life, which would serve the dual purpose of bringing glory to God (which was an assumed purpose of human existence) and making one’s conversion more likely. To ignore the Christian tenets that God had outlined for the benefit of humanity would be, Edwards implied, an affront to God that would be deserving of God’s wrath.
In order to awaken his audience to the power of God, Edwards evoked vivid images of God’s wrath, employing fierce metaphors drawn from the Bible and from his own work. While Edwards’ congregation would have been duly familiar with most Biblical imagery employed by Edwards and other preachers, Edwards twisted many Biblical references in unfamiliar ways. For example, Edwards likens the fire stoked by King Nebuchadnezzar to God’s own wrath. This comparison is intriguing, because Nebuchadnezzar notably displayed a lack of faith and prudence as a ruler, and such a comparison would be both ingenious and daring of Edwards. While such comparisons were quite unique, the harsh imagery and rhetorical strategies utilized in “Sinners” were not particular to Edwards; this fire-and-brimstone style of preaching was a popular genre which, having been revitalized during the Great Awakening, was familiar to the Puritans. Upon reading “Sinners,” modern readers might assume that Edwards was a particularly angry or vengeful man, but it is important to remember that “Sinners” was simply a product of a genre – it was fire-and-brimstone, preaching at its most eloquent and effective. Readers may be shocked to learn that it was Edwards’ habit to preach his sermons in a measured monotone, which he did in the hopes that his own intonations would not distract from the divine messages being conveyed by the words of the sermon. We can, therefore, be fairly sure that “Sinners” was not screamed at the many audiences that it was preached to. It is also important to remember that only a fraction of Edwards’ sermons fall into the fire-and-brimstone category. This genre was, for Edwards, the exception rather than the rule. Other of Edwards’ sermons focused on topics such as the love of God, the wonder of Christ, and the glory of the natural world.
Upon reading “Sinners,” modern readers might also be inclined towards the belief that the sermon is simply a ‘holier than thou’ treatise of condemnation. However, one must remember that Edwards saw preaching as a form of prophesying, of doing God’s will and helping humanity by conveying God’s message to the world in an effective manner. The evocative images of hell and the fire-and-brimstone style, although unsavory, would have been a means to this end. And one has only to read Edwards autobiographical “Personal Narrative” to discover that he was vastly unsure of his own conversion and amply convinced of his exceptional sinfulness and unworthiness. In preaching “Sinners,” Edwards was attempting to help listeners and readers by awakening them to the horrible truths over which he had long agonized. And when Edwards speaks emphatically of the possibility of one parishioner being condemned to hell, readers can see Edwards’ own compassion and humanity on full display.
In his introduction to Volume 10 of Yale Press’ Works of Jonathan Edwards, Professor Wilson H. Kimnach of the University of Bridgeport discusses Edwards’ convictions about the role of a preacher. Kimnach writes, “The preacher is, [according to Edwards], a ‘chosen one’ with a distinct charisma as a result of his call to serve Christ. He is invested with a capacity and right to instruct, lead, and judge his people…he has no pretension to civil authority, but in the all-important moral and spiritual realms he is, of all human beings, supremely authoritative.” Believing that he was meant to fill this powerful role of preacher, Edwards was convinced of the rightness and urgency of his moral judgments and was eager to communicate these messages (which were, to him, God’s messages) to his congregation. This view of the pastorate once again flirts with the thin barrier between conviction and self-righteousness, and it has been understandably difficult for past readers to discern the difference.
In addition to being a seminal theological work, “Sinners” is a prime example of American rhetoric in development. In considering Edwards’ literary strategies, Edwin H. Cady wrote, “Although thought, form, and imagery in the sermon are one, the great emotional power of the discourse comes primarily from the rich and versatile imagery. There are about twenty-five important “images” in “Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God.” Not all of them are good: that is, artistically effective. Some are failures because they were mere clichés, other because they are not realized by the author, still others because they are somehow fumbled. But much the greater portion of them do work successfully, and their success carries Edwards’ excruciatingly vivid vision alive into the minds of his hearers.” In presenting “Sinners” in an English classroom, it is important to discuss Edwards’ reasoning and rhetorical tactics, but it is equally essential to discuss his powerful imagery, remembering as Cady did that Edwards’ images sometimes falter. However, when viewed within the rich spectrum of American literature, Edwards’ faulty metaphors are simply a part of the creation of an American ‘voice,’ a compromise between the fierce Puritan morality that characterized early America, and the flowing artistry of the Transcendentalists, who, like Edwards, employed rich imagery to evoke notions of the divine.
As you introduce your students to “Sinners,” we hope that you will consider all that we have discussed here – essentially, the context of “Sinners” within American history, American literature, and Edwards’ own work. And we hope that this valuable context will allow students to view Edwards not as an incensed preacher foaming at the mouth, but as a rigorous intellectual who pressed his theological, philosophical, and literary skills to their breaking point in pursuit of what he believed to be his mission. (can you pursue a mission?)

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Nutteloosheid as die sin van die lewe...

Die artikel in Trouw oor ‘n wandeltog trek my aandag vanoggend terwyl ek bietjie soos ‘n vark wat weet hy gaan vir krismis geslag word, uit al die grypende hande van aansprake wil bly - hier in ons laaste week voor ons vertrek vir ‘n maand.

Dit het my so aan die dink dat ek net daar my program opskort om iets daaroor te skryf.

Dit is ‘n wandeltog deur ‘n heel gewone streek, die Pionierspark wat hierdie klomp kaaskoppe aanpak. Boele Ytsma, die organiseerder, het die plek gekies bloot oor die naam, want sy boek, waarvan hy sy jongste produk, bekendstel met die tog (Authentiek, De zoeker en het verlangen) gaan dikwels oor die pionier.

Sewentig mense neem deel. Dis nie ‘n staptog vir die hogeres en die blinkes en die respektabeles en die ordentlikes nie. Jy kom as jy wil, jy loop so ver as jy wil en jy loop net.

Kyk na die beskrywing van die deelnmers:

Het is een bonte sliert van dominees, kerkleiders, schrijvers, vertegenwoordigers van organisaties, studenten of gewoon wandelliefhebbers die deze week de wandelschoenen aantrekt.

Inderdaad: ‘n bonte sliert. Hulle is, soos die organiseerder laat blyk, mense wat soek en verlang.

Nader bekyk, nog bonter:

Een wandelend statement is de pionierstocht van Ytsma al genoemd, omdat de tochtgenoten uit alle geloofsrichtingen komen. Katholiek, remonstrants, protestant of ’zoekend gelovige’ – een term van Ytsma zelf: de pionierstocht van de internetpastor uit Groningen groeide uit tot een oecumenische wandeling.

Só word die wandeltog opgesom:

“Maar inmiddels is het een pelgrimstocht geworden waarbij bijzondere gesprekken plaatsvinden tussen vreemden – over geloven, de toekomst van de kerk, over pionieren, over het zoeken naar zin. Want inmiddels lopen er spontaan tientallen ’tochtgenoten’, zoals Ytsma ze noemt, mee met de dominee.”

‘n Pelgrimstog waartydens mense met mekaar oor die diepere dinge praat. Oor die soek na betekenis.

Tog-genote. Mede-wandelaars. Reis-genote. Emmaus-gangers. Daar is ‘n gemeenskaplikheid. Hulle is almal in ‘n rigting op pad. Maar soekende, vraende, kykende, pratende. Selfs swygende.

En tog is daar nêrens iets inhoudeliks oor wat hulle nou alles oor alles te sê gehad het nie. Dit is, boeiend, die pelgrimstog self wat hier aan die bod kom.

Om saam te stap, vraende, verlangende is die vervullende. Jy kom, jy verdwyn, jy soek nie om iets uit die tog te kry nie. Jy loop bloot saam met ander.

En dan, aan die einde, volg hierdie beskrywing wat my boei. Iemand wil natuurlik weet, ook weer so Hollands, wat die “bedoeling” met die pelgrimstog is. En die antwoord is nogal verfrissend dat daar geen bedoeling is:

Want het is geen doel op zich om eenheid uit te stralen. Een journalist vroeg: wat is eigenlijk de bedoeling? Nou die is er niet. Maar ik kan er wel een verzinnen. Bijvoorbeeld dat het een mooi statement is dat er vormen zijn waarin de verschillen van mensen mooi uitkomen.”

„Ik ben heel goed in het organiseren van dingen”, zegt Ytsma, „maar niet zo goed in het verzinnen van goede redenen daarvoor. De meeste goede dingen zijn nutteloos. Zoals een vriendschap. Zodra een vriendschap voor een van de twee nuttig wordt, is de vriendschap voorbij. Dus, misschien is dat wel het mooiste aan deze tocht. Dat het nutteloos is. Aan het eind van de wandeldag concluderen tochtgenoten dat ze een soort ervaring van eenheid of verbondenheid hebben gevoeld. Maar op het moment dat je die eenheid zou willen zoeken, zou willen benoemen, dan ben je het kwijt. Ik zoek niet bewust naar die eenheid. Het moet als een bijproduct ontstaan.”

Die meeste goeie dinge is nutteloos! Dit sal ek lank uit hierdie berig bly onthou. Vriendskap en liefde is nutteloos. Sodra jy vriendskap nuttig wil maak, is dit verby. Dan is dit nie meer vriendskap nie, maar besigheid waarin die een die ander gebruik. Of ‘n kontrak: jy presteer en ek teen-presteer (soos Nouwen dit ook uitdruk).

Liefde besef ek, is eg omdat dit so nutteloos is. En liefde verdwyn wanneer die een die ander wil gebruik om sy of haar doel te bereik. Ek wil by jou wees as my vriend en as my beminde, omdat jy jy is. As ek by jou is, wil ek in ‘n Hooglied-stemming wees. Omdat ek by jou myself kan wees, selfs met my nukkerige, lelike kant. Juis omdat die lelike in my deur ons vriendskap, ons liefde besweer word. Omdat ek myself nie by jou hoef te bewys nie. Omdat jy my nie wil verander nie. Omdat jy my nie gebruik nie. Omdat jy nie van my ‘n teenprestasie verwag nie.

Soos God se verlore kind-liefde. Egte liefde.

In ons samelewing waarin alles mos “nuttig” moet wees, is dit ‘n ding om te sê.

En dan volg die vraag – eintlik die toets, die Dawid-Nathan gesprek: hoeveel mense kan by my werklik nutteloos, sonder verwagtinge, sonder aansprake van my kant af kuier en wees?

Of: anders gestel: hoeveel mense kan ek die ruimte gee om by my net hulleself te wees. Sonder bedreiging, sonder verwagtings, sonder aansprake, sonder eise, sonder vingerwysing? Bloot net as iemand wat sonder nut vir my is, maar tog kosbaar is.

Tot in die kleinste dinge is hierdie waarheid tog geldig: die mooiste dinge in ons lewe, fisieke dinge, is daardie nuttelose, waardelose voorwerpe wat ons lewe volmaak. Die verloofring met die klein saffiersteentjie toe ons in ons armoede verloof geraak het. Die een velletjie-brief wat pa vir my liefdevol in sy handskrif, bewerig van kanker-pyn, geskryf het net voor sy dood en wat in my Bybel weggebêre is – ‘n goue herinnering aan tye van veilig-voel, geborgenheid, aan kuier-tye. Die stukkend-geleesde Ou Vertaling Bybel wat ouma my gegee het die dag toe ek lidmaat geword het – jonk, vol ideale, gretig tot die vroomheid. Die rok vol blinkertjies, nogal, wat ek gedra het toe ek mondig geword het, die intrap tot die grootmens-lewe. Die uitgetrapte tekkies waarmee ek die silwer by die Comrades gewen het toe ek die laaste keer kon deelneem.

Eendag sal iemand hulle weggooi – al hierdie dinge. Hulle, die nuttelose voorwerpe, se kosbare raklewe sal ook uitgedien wees.

Maar in die geheue van God bly hulle vir ewig. En as ons, intussen, ons lewensreis aflê terwyl ons nutteloosheid ook bedink, herinner hulle ons aan hoe kosbaar ‘n nuttelose lewe kan wees.

Om sommer net saam met ander ‘n pad te stap.

Lees die hele berig by:

http://www.trouw.nl/religie-filosofie/nieuws/article3105935.ece/_rsquo_De_meeste__goede_dingen__zijn_nutteloos_rsquo__.html

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